update about next week

The scheduler at Dr. Nash's office called me yesterday afternoon and said that the surgery center's schedule is full for Thursday. So, they rescheduled the possible D&C to Wednesday at noon, with Dr. Nash. They also rescheduled my u/s for Wednesday at 10AM with a different doctor (Dr. Nash won't be in town yet at that point). The more I thought about this last night, the more uneasy I got. If there is no heartbeat on Wednesday morning, then we will have to go straight to the surgery center, and I will have no time to mentally prepare myself for the D&C. I called Dr. Nash's nurse today to ask if I can have the u/s on Monday or Tuesday instead. She rescheduled the u/s to Tuesday at 9:30AM. I guess I am thankful for one less day to be in limbo ... alternately, this means I may have one less day to hold onto the hope that I am going to have this baby. I'm struggling a lot right now ... I am so attached to this baby, and it's not even an inch long yet. I just can't grasp the fact that this pregnancy could be ending next week. We waited so long for this. It just seems so unfair.